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Ugh, what an awful week. Last week my maid of honor decided to bail out 6 weeks before the wedding. So I had to do a changing of the guard. Luckily I had someone totally willing to step in, and that's a good thing. Then the former maid of honor decided to email the new MOH and tell her that they would not be coming to the wedding. I found out a few days later as the new MOH waited to tell me until I wasn't working. I appreciated that. I did send a text to the former saying I thought we were close enough that she would have told me personally. Then today I get an email saying she was going to tell me and not to contact her again. She said my reaction both publicly and privately confused her. The only thing I said publicly was that she dropped out, never mentioned her name, never said anything mean. Just stated a fact. Was I not supposed to have hurt feelings? The email said we hadn't been that close for a while, and I agree with that statement. Honestly I wanted a way to get her out of the wedding because it didn't seem like she cared, but I had made the choice and I was going to stick by it. The whole thing is fucked up. Now we aren't even friends. Not only did she defriend me on FB but she blocked me! Class act. I told Clay that if this is what it took to show her true colors then I'm fine with that.

I really don't I'm in the wrong here, I could be wrong about that but I don't know. I've wracked my brain trying to think of anything I did, but I can't think of anything. My feelings are hurt, and I'm trying to figure out if I'm some kind of terrible person. I don't think so. I've tried very hard not be some kind of Bridezilla and I don't think I am.

So now it's time to move on. I can't really mourn a friendship that was already gone. I'm okay with people not being in my life that only want a free beach house, or contact me only when they need something. Honestly as long as Clay shows up to the wedding that's all I care about. He's told me he's still coming.

I think I'm going to go out and do something fun. Plus Clay and I are going to make a little quick beach trip tomorrow night and play in the water for a couple days before I go back to work. I'm super happy about that!

Everything is getting worked out. I'm moving forward. It sucks when you lose someone out of your life that you used to be close with but life changes, people change, and you just adapt. Overall I'm very happy, this is a temporary bump. I feel better writing this all out so thanks for listening.

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